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Pete, 2000.

To speak the truth
Is like lighting
A candle in darkness.
The blind will not
see it; nor hear it.
But the seeker will,
and follow where it leads.
5-12-00
I received inspiration and a sign today that I should walk the path
again. And to record my experiences and openly published them on the
Internet.
5-13-00
Pancake and sausage breakfast.
5-14-00
Started water fast.
5-18-00
Fell off water fast thinking about food... went to Smorgasbord and gorged
myself on my favorite dishes. The food was delicious, but for that half
hours pleasure of eating, I suffered the next twelve hours with terrible
indigestion. A poor trade!
5-19-00
Started water fast again.
5-20-00
Woke up feeling really good. I saw a man who broke a contract with me
years ago, and had not spoken to him since. He spoke my name in greeting
and I just turned away. The thought came to me that I should let go
of my offended feeling because it was binding us both. I turned back
and walked over to him and asked him how he was doing and we had a good
talk. I would be reluctant to enter into a contract with him again,
but it felt good to have the air cleared between us.
5-22-00
Blew fast again. This time I was more moderate with my meal.
5-23-00
I have spent a great deal of time thinking about how to present this
material. And, learning how to use this new computer. It's a 566mhz
and really nice to work on. I have been struggling along on an old 486
for the past 4 years and a good comparison would be between a VW and
a Rolls. Anyway, I've decided to install a web page on the net with
a link to my journal which I hope to update every few days.
5-24-00
Now I am sure there will be a lot of people out there who will ask, "Who is this guy, Pete, and what credentials does he have to be
talking about... Uniting the mind with the Soul." Does he have
his Phd. in theology or philosophy? My answer is, "no"...
no advanced degrees, no formal credentials. What I do have
though is
much better... personal experience.
Forgive me, another little aside: I was at a party in the
city years ago and overheard a conversation between an MD
and a young man with
very long hair. The doctor was expounding on how much he
knew about LSD. He said he had treated hundreds of patients
that had taken LSD.
The young man had been very quiet throughout the doctors
recital, and finally asked, "Doctor have you ever taken LSD?" The doctor
looked a little uncomfortable and said," No." The young man
said, "Well, Doc, you don't know a damn thing about LSD, all you
know about is some people's, "bad trips." Then,
he turned and walked away.
The point is, experience is personal, it is something you know as opposed
to something you have been told, or read. Drugs are not part of my path.
5-25-00
In the early 1970's I walked the path for 3 years. I failed to reach
the goal at that time. But I did gain experience. I learned a lot about
the unknown and living with the forces and beings in the unseen world.
My only credentials are my experiences and my ability to relate them
to you honestly.
The following is a brief summary of my experiences as I remember
them. Almost immediately after I dedicated myself to the
path I noticed that
I was continually, "in the flow," that things were
being done for me to make my life easier. Soon I began to
have, what I would call
spiritual insight and inspirational thoughts.
Through inspiration I was taught how to control my body
temperature. Since I was fasting most of the time, or eating very little...just
a bit of fruit, being able to stay warm allowed me great freedom. I
could wander in the woods for days, sleeping on the ground at night,
without discomfort. A large part of living a spiritual life is learning
about nature and overcoming her limitations.
I soon developed foresight, I could 'feel' people coming my way. Or
realize certain events were about to happen. I learned to, 'read sign'
as the Indians would say. To understand the deeper meaning of things
I saw and how they related to me. I was attacked by a bull
in a bare field one time, he had large horns and charged at me at a
full gallop. I stood and waited, there was nowhere to go. The bull stopped
about three feet from me and swung his horns back and forth but didn't
(couldn't?) come closer.
5-26-00
I began to hear voices both inside and outside my head. It was explained
to me that, "it was against the law" for angels to appear
to me or speak to me before I reached a certain level on the path. However,
they were allowed to "impress" thoughts upon my
mind. Very tricky business this! I found about half of the
voices I heard (in my
head) were right about half the time.
5-27-00
Along about this time I began to have visions both while awake
and sleeping. The dream visions were like regular dreams except
they were very clear
and intense, and in vivid colors. The daytime visions
were like my mind would turn on an internal video (with no sound)
and I could see it with
my eyes open or closed and watch it play out. The
information in both types of visions was 100%.

I
soon began seeing spirits of the dead. My body and mind were pure
enough that I could
see nature spirits out in the
woods with my eyes
open or closed. With my eyes open I
saw the nature spirits with my regular sense of vision, with
my eyes closed I was
seeing them with, "Soul-Sight".
These nature spirits appeared as globes
of light filled with luminous fibers
that floated
about
three feet above the ground.
They were about
the size of a basketball in various
high tint
colors; white, gold, red, blue, and
violet. They were sometimes
in groups
of one color and at
other times mixed. It amused me to
see that the violet globes liked to
sit on
poison
oak bushes.
All of these nature spirits
were very beautiful
and moved with a gentle motion. I wish
I had been pure enough to see them
in their natural
form.
The nature spirits along with some wild animals led
me to the location of some natural power points.
At one place deep in the woods I saw a
swirling mass of energy well up out of the ground.
Another place was a healing spot. It was a place
where the ground was hollowed out, because
of so many animals coming to lay down there. This
was the day the sun stood still. Time as we know
it was suspended while I continued to experience
many things.
5-28-00
By now my teeth were expelling their amalgam fillings
without decay surrounding them. I have been bald
headed since my early thirties, but
now my hair was growing back at a rapid rate. When
I was injured I felt no pain. I accidentally dropped
a forty pound rock on my bare foot and
it didn't swell up or bruise and or cause me any
pain. No bones were broken. I began to develop some
minor, (powers?) I don't know what to
call them. I discovered quite by accident that if
I lay my finger on the wheel head of a potters wheel
with a 100lb fly wheel, the wheel
would spin. (For you potters, it was even in the
right direction.)
5-29-00
You understand that I lived in our ordinary worldly
environment-reality and at the same time I was living
in the, 'unknown and unseen' reality.
The ordinary world and the spirit world for me were
merged. I lived in this dual reality on and off for
weeks on end. It took a great deal
of discipline, courage, stamina and faith. I had
no human friends with any understanding to talk to
about my experiences and the nature spirits
remained mute. I did hear them in my mind, but I
was reluctant to get into conversations with the
nature spirits in my mind.
When I did try and talk to a person
that I thought was a friend, "they
didn't want to hear it." And boy, they really didn't want to see
any of it!! Friends are friends, but spooky stuff is spooky stuff and,
"WE DO NOT WANT ANY OF IT!!!!"
5-30-00
It seems to me that it would be best not to talk to openly to anyone
except another person on the path. Well, that's a sample of my experiences.
My credentials. The cause of my failure was basically
loneliness for human companionship and exhaustion. I had purified
my body until I could
see into the unseen, such things as nature spirits,
but didn't have the mental purity or understanding to deal with
what I was seeing.