PRAYING and PRAISE sends forth UNIVERSAL ENERGY

The Goal In Life Is To Unite The Conscious Mind With The Soul
Journal of one man's path toward spiritual enlightenment by physical
and mental purity, fasting, raw food diet, few words, natural living,
good works, right thinking, and exhilaration of the mind
by following the guidance of the Inner Voice.
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10-1-00
Eating today. I AM One with God's forgiveness. One major ego-personality problem I have had for years, is holding a grudge. For small offense I might sentence a person to a year or two in my mental jail. This means I would avoid, ignore and not speak to them for that period of time. Whether they knew or not that I had them jail, I don't know, but I sure knew!

A good grudge requires a lot of maintenance. First, I get mad or angry at the original offense, then when I think of the offense or see the offender, I get mad all over again. And I have to remind myself continually about the whole episode, and justify their sentence. And I usually conclude that, 'they deserve every day they got'. Boy, when I had a half a dozen people in jail at one time, I'm was really a busy as judge, warden, jailer and sweeper.

This type of thinking is certainly, "nuts," and since I began walking the path again I have given it up completely. Now I try to forgive people there offenses immediately and forgive myself for being such a jerk, as to take offense. May those people that I sentenced, in the past, so ruthlessly and self righteously, forgive me. However, the offenders did not suffer the loss of, 'peace of mind', as I, the jailer did, keeping watch over all those fugitives and offenders of my perfect justice. This little, 'grudge game', was real insanity, and I knew it at the time. I am very glad to be free of it.

10-2-00
Eating today. I AM One with God's power. Juanita and I went to town shopping, and later we had a steam bath.

10-3-00
Eating today. "I AM One with God's perfection". I say this affirmation just before going to sleep and it really helps me get a good nights rest. My vegan diet is holding well. I have noticed recently that whenever I eat wheat flour products they bring me down both physically and mentally. As of tomorrow I am going to stop eating all wheat flour products: bread, pastry, gravy, white sauce, spaghetti, noodles, biscuits and buns, etc. This is the hardest one for me to give up, I really like all this stuff. I will continue on awhile with corn bread.

10-4-00
Starting three day water fast. I AM One with God's peace. Steam bath and swim.

10-5-00
Fast holding OK. I AM One with God's truth.

10-6-00
Eating today. I AM One with God's mercy. Had cleansing meal last night. Steam bath.

10-7-00
Fasting today. I AM Love. My feet have toughened up quite a lot over the summer. When you go barefoot the suns rays pass through you to the ground and energize your whole body. Wearing shoes with rubber soles insulate you from the ground and the suns energy. While hiking in the mountains I go barefoot so that if I step into a energy field I know it. If I have shoes on, I would pass right through the field, no matter how large it was, and never notice.

10-8-00
Eating today. I AM Light. Had a bad day today both physically and mentally. Stayed close to home. Often now I have dreams at night that verge on being nightmares. The subject of the dreams are like scenes out of wild movies or novels: drinking, fighting, sexual encounters, gun play, being lost, not being able to find something or some person.

I woke up this morning feeling very depressed after having such dreams the night before. I often feel guilty the next day. I wonder how I can be walking a spiritual path and have such dreams. I know the dreams are caused by toxic waste being released into my blood by fasting and they will soon pass. But they are still very upsetting. Faith. I am dedicated to the path.

10-9-00
Eating today. I AM Life. Took Juanita to town shopping. Steam bath.

10-10-00
Eating today. I AM Law. I remember eating a big delicious hamburger just before I started on the path and that night and I had three wild sexual dreams in a row. The meat must have been taken from a young bull with very active hormones. This is a graphic example of what you take into your body immediately affects your consciousness.

And meat is very acid forming and develops mucus which clings to the body tissues and provides a breeding place for germs and parasites. Meat eating affects your thinking immediately and causes any number of long term problems in the body.

Fasting is the quickest way to rid the body of this toxic matter. Lemonade made with honey is a good solvent for mucus. A good subject to check out is the acid-alkaline balance in the body. (Health food stores)

10-11-00
Eating today. I AM Wisdom. Stacked firewood under porch and helped Juanita plant spring bulbs.

10-12-00
Fasting today. I AM Abundance.

10-13-00
Continuing fast. I AM Forgiveness. Went to town shopping today, got very tired.

10-14-00
Continuing fast. I AM Power. Feeling pretty good today. Broke three day water fast with cleansing meal.

10-15-00
Eating today. I AM Peace. Backslide! Pancake w/hash browns and gravy breakfast. Steam bath. Felt real good today. Drank to much ice tea which kept me awake late.

10-16-00
Eating today. I AM Truth. Had a quiet day at home with Juanita.

10-17-00
Eating today. I AM Mercy. I noticed last night that the living room lights were too bright for the first time. A sign that my body is really, 'house cleaning' and my senses are clearing. I didn't expect this to happen so soon.

10-18-00
Eating today. I AM that I AM. Steam bath.

10-19-00
Fasting today. Ate cleansing meal for supper We live in two realities. Nature or 'natural reality' which was created by God and 'man made reality' which is man's insane idea of what reality should be. Basically the seekers path bypasses the insanity of man made reality and seeks God's natural reality where he/she can live a truly spiritual life.

This is the reason for cutting down the input from the man made reality by limiting the reading of novels, magazines, newspapers, and watching tv/movies and listening to the radio. There is very little in entertainment, or the 'news' that is uplifting, but a lot of terrible things which are very depressing.

The idea is to live 'alongside' of man's insane reality, and use what we need from it for now, and not be involved in it or influenced by it.

The idea is to keep the mind completely at peace and happy all the time. Which I believe to be God's reality for us. And the best way of doing this is to avoid the emotional, 'yo-yo' affect caused by interacting in an insane world.

10-20-00
Once you are comfortable living a natural lifestyle and well along in purifying the body and mind you can begin to generate and use God's power. This universal energy which is within you and all around you is for everyone to use, if they just will. This energy is dormant until acted upon by your thoughts and feelings.

There is a certain amount of static inertia in the beginning, quite like starting a large engine by turning the flywheel, slow and hard turning at first, but as the engine gets up to speed, its very easy to turn. It is the same with generating and projecting Almighty God's universal energy. First you must believe in and come to know that God's power exists.

The following quote explains the process of generating God's universal energy:

"The moment you say wholeheartedly, with reverence and deep meaning, that God is in His Holy Temple and know this temple is your pure body, just as you present it and as you truly stand today, that you, the true Christ, live one with God right in this temple, and that your exalted body is a holy abiding place, a whole and all-inclusive abode, you are an energizer, an all-including and outpouring vessel for this true and divine principle to flow through. Then you pour out more and more of the God which you are and which you love."

"The Son accomplishes readily what the father accomplishes. This is also being humble to and bowing before this great power. This is true humility stepping forth in humble mien, one with your own driving force and power."

"By constantly contemplating, praising, blessing and giving thanks to this power you increase the flow and, as you do this, it becomes potent and more readily accessible to you. Pray without ceasing for your daily life is true prayer."

"By first KNOWING that this power does exist, then using it with absolute confidence, you soon become wholly conscious of it. You soon KNOW that it is all-inclusive in and through you. If you will let it flow, it will rush to you in every instance. It flows to you as you let it flow from you. Stand forth as God and give it out. This is God your Father in you and you and your Father are One. Not servants but SONS [and DAUGHTERS], of the First Primal Cause. All that I AM has, is yours; for you are I AM."

"It is not you who do the work, it is I AM in the Father and the Father in you brings forth great accomplishments. As you know that you work, one with the Father, there are no limitations, no boundaries, you know it is your divine right to accomplish all things."

"When you pray, enter your closet, the secret chamber of your Soul. There pray to your Father within; and your Father, who hears, will reward you openly. Pray and give thanks that you are able to give forth more of God to the whole world."

I have experienced this energy flow in the past and pray to experience it again and often. I begin my praying with the Lords Prayer. (Griping the flywheel.) I ask for God's blessings on my family and friends. And thank God that his blessings are fulfilled. I praise god for his Love. (The wheel moves ever so slightly.) Bless all people in all directions, "I bless all people to the North" etc. And ask God that they have food, clothing, shelter, warmth, health, happiness, and peace. I thank God for these blessings. (The wheel slowly begins to turn.)

I pray for all my brothers and sisters on a spiritual path. I list all my blessings and thank God for His abundance. I tell the Almighty of my awe of life and the beauty of nature. I then thank God for my life and all his creations. (The wheel turns slow and steady.)

I continue to pray, praise, bless and give thanks and the energy builds and flows outward with my silent words. You can say the words aloud if you like and make up your own words of prayer, again there are no rules. It is the continuing on with the praying, praise, blessings and thanks that builds the power. (Gets the wheel spinning, so to say.)

And the more often you attain the place of power within yourself the more confidence you will have, the sooner the energy will come to you the next time. To use this Universal energy for a purpose remember: invocation, relationship, truth, direction, but again, God knows your desires before you speak the words.

If you say your prayers in silence, you can pray anyplace and under any condition. Peace be with you!

10-21-00
Fasting today. Went to town shopping and to do laundry.

10-22-00
Fasting today. Broke fast at 1pm today with a large piece of cornbread. Ate cleansing meal for supper, with a piece of cornbread and syrup for desert.

10-23-00
Eating today. Backslider breakfast. I find it interesting that some spiritual books, which I feel are very good, directly contradict each other on certain facts .i.e. Whether Jesus was crucified or stoned to death? Whether person has to die to ascend or can a persons body be transfigured. These are just minor points which I try not to let influence my understanding of the main message.

10-24-00
Eating today. Spent nice day with Juanita at home.

10-25-00
Fasting today. Stacked firewood under the porch and getting ready for winter around the place. Made quick trip to town this afternoon (40 mi.ow) to bank and do grocery shopping. Steam bath. Ate cleansing meal for supper. A wonderful thing happens when your body is well on the way to being purified. One day you will wake up and feel again the thrill and excitement of being alive like when you were a child. You can't wait to get out of bed and see what the day will bring. You will feel happy and blessed and it will be so every morning and all day from then on. Stay on the path.

10-26-00
Eating today.

10-27-00
Eating today. I try to remember God the first moment I open my eyes in the morning. I say, "Good morning Lord, thank you for my Life, direct me throughout the day that I may do Your Will."

I pray, read the Essene communions, think of things to forgive and ask forgiveness for. I say to myself, "I for give you for that, John," or, "I forgive myself for some offense and now I never have to think of it again." Forgiven and forgotten. When something is forgotten it is truly forgiven.

10-28-00
Eating today. Steam bath-swim.

10-29-00
Eating today.

10-30-00
Eating today.

10-31-00
Eating today.